Number of years cancer-free: 5
Current CA125 level: 14
How I feel: very proud
been four months since I had my emergency hysterectomy and, thanks to
getting a couple of infections, it's been a long recovery process. But
I'm finally out the other side now and apart from some soreness if I
attempt to do too much, I feel much more like myself. Just in time to
celebrate a big personal milestone.
After I finished chemotherapy
for the second time I wasn't sure how long I'd have before the cancer
came back - after all, the cancer came back just six months after I
finished my first course of chemo. So, making plans for the future was
something I deliberately didn't do. But when we had our first miraculous
little girl I gave myself a secret aim: to be around long enough to see
her go to school.
I was never completely convinced I would
really get to see it, but six weeks ago Molly started school. Getting
her dressed in her uniform and taking her into the classroom would've
been emotional anyway, but it had such added significance for me that I
felt quite overwhelmed. I had reached a milestone I was never sure I
would get to. I felt so proud watching her settle in, and every day when
I take her to school now it almost feels like a bonus. Like I'm being
given time with her that I never thought or dared hope I would have.
and here's the bit you have to keep to yourself, I've now got my next
secret milestone: seeing Tess go to school. It's still three years away,
and the thought of looking that far ahead is ridiculously scary,
particularly after my cancer scare over the summer. But I'm going to
keep it right at the very back of my head, and every day I'm going to
take a tiny step closer to it.
After having the hysterectomy I
initially felt quite upset that I couldn't chose whether or not to have
any more children. We hadn't planned any more, but to have that decision
taken out of your hands is very different. But the more time that
passes the more I feel so complete with my two girls. I'm unbelievably
lucky to have them, and not a single day goes by when I don't stop and
remember that. So now I'm just going to concentrate on getting to my
next milestone, and enjoy every day that gets me there.